Sunday, February 25, 2007

No More Lies




Thinking about the story of Pinocchio tonight. That particular story has so much truth in it. Pinocchio had such a hard time telling the truth and kept hurting himself and those around him. Lies and deceit create prisons around those who are guilty of them and are impossible to escape. That is unless we are willing to look at and admit the truth. Maybe we could see ourselves more clearly and move on with our lives instead of spinning our wheels. The last aspect of our lies is the incredible hurt we place on those that care for us. What people do not know does hurt them.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007






so here's some more pictures from crew. Includes Pepper, Wendy, Ginger & Abigail.

Love those puppies.

Happy thoughts!

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Conviction of character

Plagued by insomnia again. Thoughts of those around me. Last night I was having trouble articulating my feelings, but I think it is becoming more clear to me.

I am frustrated by the changes in personality people take on in certain settings. Losing track of the things or people in life that matter to play games with others. Losing track of their self and behaving in self-destructive ways. Lastly, leaving people closest to them feeling disrespected. With a final result of disrespecting ourselves to obtain some immediate need may impact the situation or feelings of individuals most committed to us. The most committed people being the ones that love us for who we are minus all our bullshit and want things that will make us genuinely happier people. Those that push and motivate us to develop our true potential to become truly comfortable with who we are and learn to love ourselves.

Friday, February 16, 2007

a little ditty


Ravishing Amorous Cutie Happily Exchanging Loving


Get Your Sexy Name



So here's to you Katie & Jayne!

so what do you all think?

is it true?

Tuesday, February 13, 2007










These pictures reminded me of my reef tank that I had for over 5 years. At one point, this particular fish (copper banded butterfly)lived in it with bluefish (aka blue damsal) & misc others.

Copper banded butterfly are very difficult to care for and unfortunately he did not survive. However, Bluefish lived for almost 5 years. The interesting story surrounding bluefish is that he was on the verge of death because this yellow tang kept picking on him so much, but once I removed the tang from the tank, Bluefish recovered and returned to his old self.

I learned so much about creating an ecosystem for marine life in that time. Everything was alive inside the tank and dependant on each other for their survival. Right down to the tiny organisms you could only see floating around in the water at night using a flashlight. I really enjoyed that aspect of the entire experience of the tank. I had polyps, mushrooms, corals, anemones, snails, shrimp and various other organisms that assisted in some way of maintaining the tank. Live rock was essential to the system.

I find so many parallels between what I learned about reef tanks and personal responsibility. Everything that existed inside it, needed each other. It became very clear to me how each of us are connected to each other and that when we believe our actions or choices will not affect another person, we are lying to ourselves. That may appear to be a leap to some, but I honestly believe that nature is a model for us to learn from when we are uncertain how to make decisions in life. The answers to life are simple, but are difficult to face because we have so much that we do not wish to let go. Maybe in time we as a species will open our eyes and take care and value what we are fortunate to have.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Abigail

Sitting here with my little dog, Abigail, I think about all that has happened since adopting her over 3 years ago. My life has changed radically, but she has remained a constant in my life. That is why she is so special to me.



Yet, I love my other puppies very much too. Ginger, Pepper & Wendy.

Darn't! I would love to post a picture of them, but I am having some difficulty locating them on hard drive for some reason. Trust me, they are all very darling and sweet!

Well, this will be a short one, but decided I needed to write a bit.